It's too late...

I definately haven't blogged anything for a while. My softmore year hasn't been as great as I expected. Especially this past week. When I found out my best friend is moving to Utah. It's probably been the worst week ever, and the sad part is, it's not going to get better.

Plus, I'm doing very bad in English and I am going to drop that honors class this Thursday.

Even though I haven't been the happiest person lately, there have been some exciting occasions! Paige got her licence!!!! She drove me and Kaley around on Friday. It was way cool. We have so much more freedom! Haha even though she's going to be going on dates every weekend now.

Also, Steph moved to Arizona!! I got to hang out with her a little on Thursday, which was awesome, but we're going to hang out more.

Yesterday was pretty fun too. I got to hang out with Summer and Amy from EFY! We saw Sidney White. It's gooood and funny.

I think I'll start up my blogging again haha. Next week is Fall Break and I'm going to be here in Arizona with just my dad and my brother. Stay here, and party it up with me!

This week!

I'm going to EFY tomorrow! I am waaaaaay excited!!
I'm rooming with Paige, and I'm also going with Kaley and Emma.
Emma and I get to leave at 5 am tomorrow to fly to Provo!
Tyler told me I had to have at least 10 guys give me their number haha.

I am a little disapointed about not being here for Jaclyn's birthday, which is this Friday! I'm sure I'll make it up to her somehow hahaha. It may include singing :)

I get back early afternoon on Saturday, in time for Keisha and Jaclyn's party! It's gonna be tiiiight.

I can't wait to see Paige tomorrow!! Oh, and Kaley, my X-celent friend!

You should definately call me anytime this week, because I'm going to miss everyone!
See ya in a week! (not a month haha)

She's teeellin the truth

Oh man, this was a good week.

Wednesday, I went shopping, went to a party, which was lame, but it was pretty fun stalking people and swimming at Parker's! Then I slept over at Keisha's.
Thursday, I went shopping, got a pedi with Emily, then went to Aspen's and slept over.
Friday, I went shopping, Jeneale and a bunch of other people came over and we just chilled, played GH, and swam.
Today, I basically just swam, cleaned, played the piano, and chilled with Emily, Keisha, Jaclyn, Amanda, Wes, Joey, Parker, and Ryan. I'm a baby when it comes to scary movies. It was a fun night :)

I have decided that change is good sometimes. I need to change. I'm haven't yet figured out how exactly. But I don't want it to keep me from having fun. I have friends now, and those people know how I am, and hopefully like me because of that. If there's someone who doesn't like me because of it, I don't want them to like me because I changed just for them. Nobody should have to do that for anybody. I have no idea if that even makes sense... haha.
I also realized that I can't be mean, and I can't hold grudges. I'm not sure if that's a good thing?

There are some friends that I just never want to lose. Ever.

Dye...

I was at Paige's house all day. A good portion of it, by myself.

Tonight, me, Paige, Parker, and Warren ate at Panda Express, then me Paige, and Parker went to Ulta and Walmart to buy hair stuff, then Basha's to rent a movie.

I dyed Parker's hair tonight black. We also watched John Tucker Must Die with some people. It was a fun night!

I AM SO GLAD EMILY'S HOME! :)

So I have been happier lately! Last week was just a bad week. I'm not going to let little things bother me. I am in a really good mood right now actually. Haha I don't know why.

Tomorrow: PARTY! That should be fun. You should come!?

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JeNeale just found that for me. We wrote that in one of her online profiles when I was in 7th grade. Hahaha don't ask :)

Motion City Soundtrack

So much to say
But No words to convey
The loneliness building with each passing day
But I’m getting used to it, you have to get used to it

I’ll destroy this useless heart
I’ll f it up so it’ll never beat again
Not just for me but for anyone

But I get carried away
with every phrase and made up malady
The longer I hide behind these lies,
The more I disintegrate

So much to say
But no words to convey
The loneliness building with each passing day
But I never get used to it, you just have to live with it.





I'm fine, I'm fine
These words are all I have to hide behind
So get behind me, you have no right to say..

I shut my mouth and walk away from the memory game.



Idk I just liked both those lyrics. So true.
Right now I'm not in the best mood. Haha but I will be in a better mood as soon as I can actually do something. I've stayed here at my house since Saturday morning and I think it's been a little too long.

Today I went to the hospital to see my new cousin Avery. She is my uncle and aunt, Matt and Mindi's baby. She's way cute.

Right now I'm thinking:
now that's what I call lights out!
I'm just checking the matress
and broccoli and cho-co-lat, it makes the people talk alot.
Haha :)


There's so many people I want to hang out with this week! Considering it's basically my last week of summer.
Gimme a call!

Never again

I was supposed to be done babysitting at 9 tonight, but apparently their dinner and movie took longer than they thought it would. I just got home at 11, and now I am eating dinner which consists of 2 rolls and 2 fortune cookies.

Today, all I did was sit around in my pj's all day reading HP7, watching tv, on the computer, or sleeping. Oh yeah, and eating. It was slightly hard to function haha.

The ONLY person I am mad at is me. No one else. I blame myself :)



Everybody makes mistakes... Everybody has those days... Everybody knows what what I'm talkin' 'bout... Everybody gets that way...

Sometimes I'm in a jam
I've gotta make a plan
It might be crazy
I do it anyway
No way to know for sure
I'll figure out a cure
I'm patchin' up the holes
But then it overflows
If I'm not doin' to well
Why be so hard on my self?

Nobody's Perfect!
I gotta work it!
Again and again 'til I get it right
Nobody's Perfect!
You live and you learn it!
And if I mess it up sometimes...
Nobody's perfect

See ya

And it's alright, yeah I'll be fine
Don't worry 'bout this heart of mine
Just take your love and hit the road
There's nothing you can do or say
You're gonna break my heart anyway
So just leave the pieces when you go

You can drag out the heartache
Baby you can make it quick
Really get it over with
And just let me move on


:(

Now that's what I call lights out!

Me, Jessica, Keisha, and Lorraine went skinny dipping in the thunder storm tonight. It was basically the best night of summer by far. Panty parties are the best :)

Ps: my bra's still wet

No sleep

Have you ever had a night where you absolutely cannot sleep no matter how hard you try, because something's on your mind and it may be driving you crazy? Well that's how it is tonight. I'm not exactly sure what it is or why I'm posting this. Maybe because there is nothing else to do and every other normal person is sleeping at this time- which would be the normal thing to do. But I guess I'm not normal. Haha. I don't know how I'm going to get any sleep tonight. Plus my sister is sleeping on the couch I usually sleep on.


Share with me the blankets that your wrapped in
Because its cold outside cold outside its cold out side
Share with me the secrets that you kept in
Because its cold inside cold inside its cold inside

And your slowly shaking finger tips
Show that your scared like me so
Let pretend were alone
And I know you may be scared
And I know were unprepared
But I don't care

Tell me tell me
What makes you think that you are invincible
I can see it in your eyes that your so sure
Please don't tell me that I am the only one that's vulnerable
Impossible


I wish somebody was awake so I'd have someone to talk to :(

Guitar Hero

Tonight I brought GH over to Paige's and we played. I'm getting quite a bit better!

Paige is leaving for Cali tomorrow and not coming back till I think Monday? I'm not exactly sure, but then Wednesday, she's leaving again for Utah. After that, we are going to EFY! I am quite excited. Kaley and Emma are going with us too. It's going to be so fun!

It's so funny how you make first impressions of people before you get to know them. Actually, it's not that funny. It's kind of stupid. I do that quite often- I'm not going to lie. Other people have made first impressions of me as well, and I usually find them very ridiculous. Everyone makes them though. It's really too bad.

I really hate it when one of your best friends hates another one of your best friends. Ugh it's so difficult to make everyone happy- to please everyone. I am not very good at that haha. I wish there was a way where that would be possible.

I hate eating crap. Yet, I tend to always do it. I need to stop now before I blow up hahaha.

This week has been off to a good start! It's great to be home. Hopefully the rest of the week will be good as well!

Beach house

This past week I was in Oceanside, California staying in a beach house that my mom's side of the family rents out every summer for a week. It was pretty fun, but as the week went on, I was very ready to come home. The beach is amazing, I would love to live there, and the weather was great. It was in the 70's. When I wasn't outside in a swim suit, I was wearing a jacket. While I was there, I layed out, buggie boarded, jogged along the beach, saw HP 5, shopped, took family pictures, and read. It was extremely relaxing. I can't say how nice it is to be home though!
Now that I'm home, call me up and we'll hang out!

Softmore year

This coming up year I have decided a few things for myself.
I am going to try make a bunch more friends. I will hopefully be able to do this by being more friendly. I'll work on that.
I am going to try harder- with everything I do. Classes, friends, music, any situation.
I also would like to find a new dance studio, learn how to drive, get my permit and eventually license, get more piano students, and maybe learn how to play the guitar.
I'm excited to start a new year, with new grades, new teachers, new classes, new friends, new people.
I can tell this year is going to be good. I will make it good :)

New Blog!

This is my new blog, well, actually it would be my first. I'll try to post pictures and other stuff as often as I can! Enjoy!